May 19, 2010 | 10:08 am

Wednesday – Meandering with God

On Sunday afternoon I took a three hour walk. I didn’t power walk or jog. I just meandered. It was one of those rare opportunities to walk without a purpose or destination. On this particular afternoon it was people-watching at its best. I passed the late brunch/early cocktail crowd sunning themselves at street side cafes. I watched a sea of softball games being played in Central Park. I had to navigate through the well-coiffed, bag-laden shoppers leaving Bloomingdales. But what I enjoyed most was being alone with my thoughts. I thought about everything and nothing in those three hours. And when I arrived home, I felt a renewed sense of clarity about everything and nothing. I wish I could find better words to describe it, but it was spiritually uplifting in a nondescript way.
As I think about what being “led” by the Spirit looks like, it reminds me of the words of Thomas Merton. He said, “The first step toward finding God, Who is Truth, is to discover the truth about myself.” Part of being led by the Spirit is looking around us for the presence and promptings of God. But we would be missing something if we are not also looking within ourselves. In the Gospel of Luke, Jesus is pressed to answer when the kingdom of God would come, i.e., the grand movement of God among us. He replied that you will not find it by looking here or there “because the kingdom of God is within you” (17:20-21). It makes me realize that I need to meander a little more in life.
Random thought of the day: To be with God may require us to be fully with ourselves.